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Post by demetri on Nov 26, 2017 5:53:25 GMT
I've been struggling with anger/unforgivness/rebellion/resentment/stubournes/not honouring my parents. I don't know exactly which one of those things it is but it's bad and its mostly towards my father and slightly to my mother. I'm embarrassed to even bring it up since the Lord convicted me hard 3 years ago to stop and I wasn't able to. I've begged, wept. Everything. I haven't even wanted to ask for prayer cause I don't want to put burdens on people. But if you would do this for me, a guy you've never met I'd really appreciate it.
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Post by zirui on Nov 26, 2017 5:57:12 GMT
Who do you have unforgivness towards?
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Post by waris on Nov 26, 2017 7:15:50 GMT
I will pray for you. I don’t know where you are in your relationship with God, but learn to continually thank Him and talk to Him like He is your counselor. The more gratitude you have the more easier it is to let go of all the negative because there is someone who always has it harder, but you never know. Thank Him in whatever you do and every time you eat.
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Post by demetri on Nov 26, 2017 17:13:16 GMT
Who do you have unforgivness towards? My dad and I don't know why. |
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Post by demetri on Nov 26, 2017 17:19:35 GMT
I will pray for you. I don’t know where you are in your relationship with God, but learn to continually thank Him and talk to Him like He is your counselor. The more gratitude you have the more easier it is to let go of all the negative because there is someone who always has it harder, but you never know. Thank Him in whatever you do and every time you eat. Yeah it's putting a major blockage between me and God. This I've noticed. The longer it goes On the further it seems like we get. Edit: I been trying to rejoice the last months but it seems like when there might be breakthrough things just revert back to how they've been. This sin goes back at least 10-15 years. I don't even know when it started |
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Post by zirui on Nov 26, 2017 18:10:26 GMT
So tell me about your relationship with your father and see if we can find out why you have bitterness against him.
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Post by waris on Nov 26, 2017 22:11:29 GMT
The enemy likes to attack right before breakthrough. Ask God to remember your dreams. Sometimes the enemy likes to block us from remembering our dreams so pray against that. Have you watched Doug’s unforgiveness video?
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Post by moni on Nov 26, 2017 23:02:22 GMT
Youre family in Christ of course we will pray
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Post by demetri on Nov 27, 2017 1:09:31 GMT
So tell me about your relationship with your father and see if we can find out why you have bitterness against him. Honestly its been this way so long I can't remember how it used to be. My dad worked a lot when I was younger. But when he wasn't working he'd spend time with us and play with us etc. I can remember asking God to let me spend more time with my dad. And glory to God I actually work for him now but the flip side is I don't talk to him really or I get mad really easy at him. And it's not a righteous anger. it's bad. Really bad. He was always kind caring etc. Very sweet. That's all I can really remember. He's very patient and long suffering at this point. I mean the fact that my parents put up with me at all is pure Jesus in them. It's crazy. I remember like 10 years ago or so we were sitting in the car one day in the driveway and he asked me if I'd like to go get some food or something. And All I wanted to say was yes. And I couldn't. I'm not trying to cop-out or blame demons but it almost literally felt like something was covering my mouth from speaking. I could speak technically but something was making it very hard by covering my mouth. So instead I think I responded with a grunt or a shake of my head. And I'm not joking when I say I'm so used to speaking to my father in grunts and head shake that this is how I communicate with him even still. It's embarrassing. We rarely have real conversations because of me. I honestly don't know how to communicate to my parents now and I'm not a child in 35. It's crazy. And it's slightly effects my siblings also cause I don't speak to them as open or freely also. But not nearly as bad as with my dad. And this is only with my immediate family. This is like the hidden sin in my life that I can't shake. |
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Post by demetri on Nov 27, 2017 1:24:57 GMT
The enemy likes to attack right before breakthrough. Ask God to remember your dreams. Sometimes the enemy likes to block us from remembering our dreams so pray against that. Have you watched Doug’s unforgiveness video? I had a dream yesterday and I was in a room with a tv on and Doug came on the broadcast. He was giving a word to someone. In the word he said there's a man who is 24 or 25 (can't remember the exact number) and supposed to be walking in "this". And he named casting out demon healing the sick speaking in tongues prophesying etc and somehow I knew he was talking about me but in the dream I wasnt the age he mentioned I was one year older. He also mentioned the age 27 which confused me. When he said "supposed to walking in this" this sin I'm struggling with came with hard conviction. This is the first dream I've ever seen Doug in it but yeah. I have so many dreams I usually write them off. But this one made me sad. |
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Post by demetri on Nov 27, 2017 1:27:30 GMT
Youre family in Christ of course we will pray Honestly may God give all of you every good thing whether spiritual or physical that is within his will. He can even give you guys my blessings. I just need to be free. So I cAn live for him unadulterated so to speak |
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Post by moni on Nov 27, 2017 2:01:18 GMT
So tell me about your relationship with your father and see if we can find out why you have bitterness against him. Honestly its been this way so long I can't remember how it used to be. My dad worked a lot when I was younger. But when he wasn't working he'd spend time with us and play with us etc. I can remember asking God to let me spend more time with my dad. And glory to God I actually work for him now but the flip side is I don't talk to him really or I get mad really easy at him. And it's not a righteous anger. it's bad. Really bad. He was always kind caring etc. Very sweet. That's all I can really remember. He's very patient and long suffering at this point. I mean the fact that my parents put up with me at all is pure Jesus in them. It's crazy. I remember like 10 years ago or so we were sitting in the car one day in the driveway and he asked me if I'd like to go get some food or something. And All I wanted to say was yes. And I couldn't. I'm not trying to cop-out or blame demons but it almost literally felt like something was covering my mouth from speaking. I could speak technically but something was making it very hard by covering my mouth. So instead I think I responded with a grunt or a shake of my head. And I'm not joking when I say I'm so used to speaking to my father in grunts and head shake that this is how I communicate with him even still. It's embarrassing. We rarely have real conversations because of me. I honestly don't know how to communicate to my parents now and I'm not a child in 35. It's crazy. And it's slightly effects my siblings also cause I don't speak to them as open or freely also. But not nearly as bad as with my dad. And this is only with my immediate family. This is like the hidden sin in my life that I can't shake. Hmm.. I kind of know what you are talking about. You cannot open up to your family. I suspect its because they used to misunderstand you at some point or use what you told them against you in some kind of way? This seems to me like a reaction. Because family is the closest to us we usually are vunerable with them esspecially when we are kids. And it takes one small thing or wrong word or behaviour that can be traumatic enough to cause us to close up. It is difficult i know. Pray about it, get filled with the Holy Spirit. I think when you will be walking in love it will come more naturally. But it definitely could be demonic. I believe those can be driven out. Definitely with compassion and love. i know they cause you to blame yourself and feel guilty, reject that. Pray for your parents a lot. Try listening to what they have to say. |
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Post by waris on Nov 27, 2017 2:38:42 GMT
Maybe the dream means that there is a video Doug made that will help you. I’m not sure though or sure which one. Any dreams before that?
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Post by demetri on Nov 27, 2017 5:03:41 GMT
Honestly its been this way so long I can't remember how it used to be. My dad worked a lot when I was younger. But when he wasn't working he'd spend time with us and play with us etc. I can remember asking God to let me spend more time with my dad. And glory to God I actually work for him now but the flip side is I don't talk to him really or I get mad really easy at him. And it's not a righteous anger. it's bad. Really bad. He was always kind caring etc. Very sweet. That's all I can really remember. He's very patient and long suffering at this point. I mean the fact that my parents put up with me at all is pure Jesus in them. It's crazy. I remember like 10 years ago or so we were sitting in the car one day in the driveway and he asked me if I'd like to go get some food or something. And All I wanted to say was yes. And I couldn't. I'm not trying to cop-out or blame demons but it almost literally felt like something was covering my mouth from speaking. I could speak technically but something was making it very hard by covering my mouth. So instead I think I responded with a grunt or a shake of my head. And I'm not joking when I say I'm so used to speaking to my father in grunts and head shake that this is how I communicate with him even still. It's embarrassing. We rarely have real conversations because of me. I honestly don't know how to communicate to my parents now and I'm not a child in 35. It's crazy. And it's slightly effects my siblings also cause I don't speak to them as open or freely also. But not nearly as bad as with my dad. And this is only with my immediate family. This is like the hidden sin in my life that I can't shake. Hmm.. I kind of know what you are talking about. You cannot open up to your family. I suspect its because they used to misunderstand you at some point or use what you told them against you in some kind of way? This seems to me like a reaction. Because family is the closest to us we usually are vunerable with them esspecially when we are kids. And it takes one small thing or wrong word or behaviour that can be traumatic enough to cause us to close up. It is difficult i know. Pray about it, get filled with the Holy Spirit. I think when you will be walking in love it will come more naturally. But it definitely could be demonic. I believe those can be driven out. Definitely with compassion and love. i know they cause you to blame yourself and feel guilty, reject that. Pray for your parents a lot. Try listening to what they have to say. I keep trying to think of where it may have started. Maybe the Lord will reveal it one day to me. Soon hopefully if it will help. Thank you for bringing up walking in love. More recently I've been praying to be filled with his love. And to walk in it. To see people as He does and to treat them as He would. |
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Post by demetri on Nov 27, 2017 5:12:28 GMT
Maybe the dream means that there is a video Doug made that will help you. I’m not sure though or sure which one. Any dreams before that? I've asked The Lord to help understand the dream if it was from him. Other than that I can't remember anything from the days before. Ill start writing dreams down just in case I need to remember. |
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