Post by Chris Brown on Dec 20, 2019 20:57:36 GMT
I was raised a southern baptist, was "saved" at my parents church, but never really felt like I belonged. So I left that church, went to another baptist church that a friend went to, got really involved with that church, met my wife there, got married there, I even worked as a janitor there for a bit. But after a while most of the staff left, a lot of our friends left, and things within the church began to change. We tried some other churches but never felt like they were right for us, and eventually stopped going altogether. A few years ago we found some Torah observant Christians on youtube and started following Torah as best we could. My wife is an ER nurse and has to work Saturdays quite a bit. So we're not following Torah 100%, but we're trying. And when I told my parents that I would not be celebrating Christmas this year because I don't think it's in anyway about Jesus, my dad got mad and called me an immature Christian who needed to study more. So I'm really confused and I'm searching for answers. I came across the FOTM youtube channel a few weeks ago, and I was blown away!
Can I have a relationship with Jesus like that? Can I really talk to God and hear his voice? Are we not commanded to keep Torah? Then I began to wonder if I every was ever really saved. Have I ever really had a relationship with Jesus? What does a real relationship with Jesus look like?
A few months ago I signed up to go to a fasting center in Costa Rica mainly for health reasons (high blood pressure, eczema), but after the events of the last few months, I've decided to make it about seeking Jesus. So tomorrow I'm leaving for the fasting center to do a 40 day fast with the expectation to be changed by God! Or at least to find out what direction I'm supposed to be going in. I plan on reading the Bible from cover to cover, Praising God, and spending lots of time seeking him in prayer while I'm there. I want to find out the truth about God! I want to hear his calling, I want to be confident that I am doing the things he wants me to do, And I want to know that I'm leading my wife down a righteous path like I'm supposed to be doing.
I know this is long, but I really need change in my life. I really need a passion for my life. I really need to be close to Jesus, and to know him much better than I have in the past. Could you please pray for me? Pray that I come away from this fast healthy, on fire for God, and with a definite sense of direction in my life.
Thank You,
Chris
Can I have a relationship with Jesus like that? Can I really talk to God and hear his voice? Are we not commanded to keep Torah? Then I began to wonder if I every was ever really saved. Have I ever really had a relationship with Jesus? What does a real relationship with Jesus look like?
A few months ago I signed up to go to a fasting center in Costa Rica mainly for health reasons (high blood pressure, eczema), but after the events of the last few months, I've decided to make it about seeking Jesus. So tomorrow I'm leaving for the fasting center to do a 40 day fast with the expectation to be changed by God! Or at least to find out what direction I'm supposed to be going in. I plan on reading the Bible from cover to cover, Praising God, and spending lots of time seeking him in prayer while I'm there. I want to find out the truth about God! I want to hear his calling, I want to be confident that I am doing the things he wants me to do, And I want to know that I'm leading my wife down a righteous path like I'm supposed to be doing.
I know this is long, but I really need change in my life. I really need a passion for my life. I really need to be close to Jesus, and to know him much better than I have in the past. Could you please pray for me? Pray that I come away from this fast healthy, on fire for God, and with a definite sense of direction in my life.
Thank You,
Chris
