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Post by James Brady on Dec 8, 2018 10:42:04 GMT
Jesus told me I was going to go through seven periods this last April on the day after my
birthday. It was a very beautiful miracle and prophesy. It was very encouraging and I was very thankful and felt blessed like few people ever are. God has done things in my life He has done in only a handful of human beings' lives. I should be incredibly grateful and humble and a profitable servant.
I'm in the middle of it and it seems crushingly hard, and my cup has never been more empty in years.
I've been living at Fotm for 2 years now and I can just get crazy sometimes. Like if my life isn't like Abraham I'm crazy jealous, and when it is, the warfare is so crazy, and the walk is so difficult and deliberately hard to explain that I get so mad and bitter I want to die.
Please pray I would be filled with the Holy Spirit and not give in to any temptations. That I would see things clearly, especially where any filters are blinding me. And whatever God wants in His perfect will.
I believe God piled up a whole bunch of "God, please put that burden on me" kind of prayers and is letting me bear a bunch right now at the same time, because it's been ultra-hard.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 8, 2018 12:30:48 GMT
What parts of your life are crushingly hard? I mean in what ways?
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Post by Larry Marquez on Dec 8, 2018 12:40:11 GMT
Jesus told me I was going to go through seven periods this last April on the day after my birthday. It was a very beautiful miracle and prophesy. It was very encouraging and I was very thankful and felt blessed like few people ever are. God has done things in my life He has done in only a handful of human beings' lives. I should be incredibly grateful and humble and a profitable servant. I'm in the middle of it and it seems crushingly hard, and my cup has never been more empty in years. I've been living at Fotm for 2 years now and I can just get crazy sometimes. Like if my life isn't like Abraham I'm crazy jealous, and when it is, the warfare is so crazy, and the walk is so difficult and deliberately hard to explain that I get so mad and bitter I want to die. Please pray I would be filled with the Holy Spirit and not give in to any temptations. That I would see things clearly, especially where any filters are blinding me. And whatever God wants in His perfect will. I believe God piled up a whole bunch of "God, please put that burden on me" kind of prayers and is letting me bear a bunch right now at the same time, because it's been ultra-hard. You tried fasting to help you? |
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Post by demetri on Dec 8, 2018 16:15:32 GMT
I’m praying for you James. That you get everything you need bro.
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Post by Matthew on Dec 8, 2018 19:22:48 GMT
Hey James! I’ll be praying for you brother. Although nowhere near that scale, I’ve been going through something similar. He’s given me glimpses that it’s gonna be so worth it in the end when I’m even more dead than ever before. Stay strong in Him!
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Post by James Brady on Dec 8, 2018 19:43:25 GMT
You tried fasting to help you? Yes, brother. I fasted 40 days without food or drink because Jesus told me to. It's ridiculous to complain when I know what the walk is supposed to be when you are truly all-in. But Jesus deliberately lets it go so far beyond my ability to handle sometimes. My cup was just empty and I was despairing. Thank you for the prayers. Anyway, praise God, He only does good. |
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Post by Deleted on Dec 8, 2018 21:23:35 GMT
I hope you're not despairing now. I mean that kindly and not condemningly. Just be careful. GOD is always fair. I had to repent today. I've been complaining because of the dry season I'm in. I was angry at HIM for seemingly stepping back. But everything HE decides is right. EVERYTHING, even when we don't understand or it's uncomfortable. GOD is GOD and HE can do what HE wants and it is always good what HE decides. Who am I to tell GOD how to relate to me?! I'm nothing! I'm just dust, flesh and bone and every breath is a generous gift of God.
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Post by waris on Dec 10, 2018 1:28:11 GMT
Jesus told me I was going to go through seven periods this last April on the day after my birthday. It was a very beautiful miracle and prophesy. It was very encouraging and I was very thankful and felt blessed like few people ever are. God has done things in my life He has done in only a handful of human beings' lives. I should be incredibly grateful and humble and a profitable servant. I'm in the middle of it and it seems crushingly hard, and my cup has never been more empty in years. I've been living at Fotm for 2 years now and I can just get crazy sometimes. Like if my life isn't like Abraham I'm crazy jealous, and when it is, the warfare is so crazy, and the walk is so difficult and deliberately hard to explain that I get so mad and bitter I want to die. Please pray I would be filled with the Holy Spirit and not give in to any temptations. That I would see things clearly, especially where any filters are blinding me. And whatever God wants in His perfect will. I believe God piled up a whole bunch of "God, please put that burden on me" kind of prayers and is letting me bear a bunch right now at the same time, because it's been ultra-hard. What did God warn you? And what do you mean life like Abraham? Also why do you get mad/ bitter? (At God or life or other things?) |
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Post by nottaexpert on Dec 13, 2018 0:50:31 GMT
I can prey for you but honestly im still new and relearning how to prey so im not sure how much good it will do. Also i just seen the video Hearing God's voice. REALLY! You can do that! - FOTM1 and im so glad i did for two reasons it hit home for me and now i got some serious reflection and stuff to do for myself and two i totally would not have understood the use the term fasting. Anyway like i said im new and you already know this, love it and live it so religiously i doubt i can help you but i can talk to you person to person. While i dont know exactly what it is your going through i feel ya man. Im going through some incredibly hard times myself. In my 47 yrs i have seen abuse, neglect, homelessness (not living just living in my car or couch hoping but actual sleeping under the bridge hitchhiking etc)Death, loss of long term relationships/families, jobs, money, cars, addictions and so forth. Honestly it wasnt to long ago for one of the few times in my life i had honestly considered suicide as an option. I feel your hardship. But you know i feel better today then i did yesterday and am hopeful tomorrow will be better. As corny as it sounds stay the course it will work out. Even the worst of the B.S. happens for a reason even if that reason is never known to us. Trust in something higher yourself such as Jesus (so i am learning) and eventually somehow some way things will start to get better. Please try not to make the mistakes i believe it was i did. I got bogged down for decades in crap like hate jealousy not understanding or trusting others caught up in ego heck maybe even judgmental. Bottom line is i let life beat me down which made me jaded which allowed all that stinking thinking in and it laid seed grew and festered until i couldn't even see that i basically was wallowing in self pity. Wow i think maybe i was. On a side note thanks for posting this its helping me with some of my issues. Yeah but basically man stay the course theres a reason its there so follow it. hopes this helps Peace.
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Post by Mike I. on Jan 21, 2019 3:48:54 GMT
I saw your testimony on your fast and ever since you were talking about the praying for the Lord of the Harvest and for more apostles to send out workers into the harvest. and praying that his bride being ready and that her flight will not be in winter or on the Sabbath. That really spoke to me. Your walk with the Lord has really been inspirational to me. I know its been well over a month since you last posted on this, but I will be keeping you in my prayers, I know the Lord is refining you, stay strong. I hope one day soon to come out to Liberty and meet you and everyone at the FOTM. Don't let your faith be hindered. You are a bold and humble son of God. I will keep you in my prayers from here on out.
may the peace of Jesus Christ be with you , always
Mike
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Post by James Brady on Oct 15, 2019 0:47:00 GMT
I can prey for you but honestly im still new and relearning how to prey so im not sure how much good it will do. Also i just seen the video Hearing God's voice. REALLY! You can do that! - FOTM1 and im so glad i did for two reasons it hit home for me and now i got some serious reflection and stuff to do for myself and two i totally would not have understood the use the term fasting. Anyway like i said im new and you already know this, love it and live it so religiously i doubt i can help you but i can talk to you person to person. While i dont know exactly what it is your going through i feel ya man. Im going through some incredibly hard times myself. In my 47 yrs i have seen abuse, neglect, homelessness (not living just living in my car or couch hoping but actual sleeping under the bridge hitchhiking etc)Death, loss of long term relationships/families, jobs, money, cars, addictions and so forth. Honestly it wasnt to long ago for one of the few times in my life i had honestly considered suicide as an option. I feel your hardship. But you know i feel better today then i did yesterday and am hopeful tomorrow will be better. As corny as it sounds stay the course it will work out. Even the worst of the B.S. happens for a reason even if that reason is never known to us. Trust in something higher yourself such as Jesus (so i am learning) and eventually somehow some way things will start to get better. Please try not to make the mistakes i believe it was i did. I got bogged down for decades in crap like hate jealousy not understanding or trusting others caught up in ego heck maybe even judgmental. Bottom line is i let life beat me down which made me jaded which allowed all that stinking thinking in and it laid seed grew and festered until i couldn't even see that i basically was wallowing in self pity. Wow i think maybe i was. On a side note thanks for posting this its helping me with some of my issues. Yeah but basically man stay the course theres a reason its there so follow it. hopes this helps Peace. God bless you, bro. Thanks for all your kind words. Praying for you too. |
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