Post by zirui on Oct 16, 2019 4:33:22 GMT
I was born in Shanghai China in 1997. My father was already in the US trying to get his Ph.D. When I turned two my mother also left for the US. My maternal grandmother raised me until I was 8 years old.
Then I met my father for the first time he brought me to the US with him. But all was not well. We lived in San Antonino Texas my parent nearly fought every week. They yelling matches would be so bad that sometimes the neighbor would call the police.
I had a hard time adjusting to American culture. Because I didn’t speak a word of English. There were very little Asians living in Texas. I was ridiculed at school the other kids made fun of my food. When I spoke some lines from SpongeBob the teachers got angry and complained to my parents.
After 6 months we left Texas and moved to Grand Rapids Michigan.
It was worse there all the other kids at school didn’t want me to join there sports team so I was paired up with the kids with autism down syndrome. These kids were all very sweet. But I felt reject by my peers so I acted weird in order to become popular. Pretty soon I essentially became the school clown.
The thing got worse with my family when my father's parents came to live with us in America for a few months.
Long Story short my grandparents had fights with my mom.
My grandfather even tried to hit my mother.
I escaped with my mother to her friend's home.
I was forced to abandon my pet turtle with my dad and his parents.
Due to my mother's financial limitation, we often went hungry while we were living in her friend's house.
When we returned my pet turtle was gone replaced with goldfishes.
My father demanded a DNA test on me to prove I was his because I sided with my mom.
It turns out I was indeed his.
Afterward we were kicked out of our apartments because the neighbor couldn’t take the constant shouting either.
When I moved into my new apartment, I made two new friends one’s name was Abby and the other was Xavier.
We were all into Pokémon and video games and we had a lot of fun.
However, there was a bully named Tino that went on the same bus that I did.
One day I was playing a Pokémon game and I said the word sweet kiss which is a Pokémon move. Then Tino heard it and called me a gaywa.
One day Tino followed me off the bus and said he wanted to fight me. Tino said he would go easy on me if I didn’t fight back. So I let him hit me and kick me until I was at the stairs of my apartment. Tino said” If you call me Master I will let you go. So I did and he let me go.
My Father soon mailed a divorce paper to my mother on April fool’s day. It devasted her because she still hadn’t master English and didn’t want to divorce.
My relationship with Abby soon broke down. We had a war and Abby jumped on top of me and she was like right on top of me and she wouldn’t get off I pushed with all my might and was able to barely escape.
I felt violated and one my friends joked I was raped by a girl.
Then in the worst timing possible when I hit puberty. Tino was right I was a gaywa.
All my dreams were shattered before me. All of my life I just wanted to be accepted. I just wanted to be normal. My dream of having a family of making my family proud was all shattered. I had to keep all of this to my self.
In a Chinese family, such a thing would be unthinkable for my family.
As I held on to my dark secrets My mother began hearing voices in her head telling her to die.
The person I loved most was slowly losing her grip on reality.
With my mother’s mental state crumbling.
My father sent her back to China in order to recuperate.
During this time my father was experimenting with different religions in order to become reach.
He took me to the synagogues and gave me a Talmud in order to find the secret of how the jews became rich.
He also took me to a Jehovah’s witness Church to study their knowledge.
Almost six months had passed if my mother didn’t return to the US soon her green card would be revoked and it wouldn’t be possible for her to return.
We didn’t know if she had the mental capacity to come back.
So I made a promise to God if he could bring her back here before her green card was revoked I would believe in him.
My mother successfully arrived back in the US on time. But only a week later due to her deteriorating conditions. We had to send her back.
I forgot about my promise. But something in me changed. I wanted to find a way to end my misery and saved my mother.
After I completed 6 grade my father decided to switch profession from stem cell to genetics and moved to Spokane Washington.
My father officiated the divorce before we moved. My mother couldn’t even defend herself because she was in China. The news hit her hard when my father shipped all her clothing back to her as well as the divorce paper she was abandoned when she needed him the most.
There was no scientific way to completely cure my mother mental illness. So soon became involved in the New age movement which believed that all religions are correct and that humans were cosmic being that could gain healing power like reiki through crystal meditations and orb cards. I particularly followed a teacher named Diana Cooper from Great Britain who have seen angels and dimensional unicorns. I study their light magic in hope of finding a way to heal my mother of her disease. They sold all sorts of stuff in their shops even a gay love potion that could turn other people gay and invisibility spells. The hilarious thing was that they told people to use these things ethically. Yeah like I’m totally going to use a love potion ethically.
Also during this time, I got interested in haunted houses by watching the haunted on Animal planet and was fascinated by these exorcisms.
One of my new Classmates in Spokane Washington Daniel Sloane lived next door to a warlock. The warlock moved away but he left an amulet behind. I asked Daniel Sloane to bring me the amulet.
So he gave it to me and I brought it home.
One day for no reason I had the sudden urge to buy a bible.
I didn’t know why I wanted a bible just that I wanted one.
I read through the whole book of Genesis but I could not understand it.
I also successfully purchased a crystal from brazil and tried to extract spiritual powers from it.
During this time I started coughing up blood
Since I was interested in exorcism haunted houses. I noticed a book in Walmart called Prayers that rout demons by John Eckhardt.
There were bible verses in these books I was hesitant to read these prayers at first. But then I read them. Then I had a dream and in that dream.
I was taken by a school bus into a courtroom. In that Courtroom, I saw God. I didn’t see what he looked like I just knew the person speaking to me was God. He asked me if I feared him. I said yes. Then he showed me a trophy with silver crosses on it. I woke up from the dream but didn’t know what to think of it. All I did was brag to the other kids in school about who showed up in my dreams last night.
Eventually, The new Agers announced on 11/11/2011 something big was going to happen.
But nothing did. I was fed up with the BS From the New Agers and decide to stop following them.
A day later I remember seeing a tv program called the 700 club I didn’t know what it was about but I remember liking it.
So I looked it up on youtube.
The 700 club talked about drug dealers, prostitutes, and bad people who’s lives were changed by accepting Jesus.
I knew I wanted this forgiveness and transformation too.
So I prayed Jesus I’m a sinner I believe that you died on the cross for my sin and that you again on the third day. I accept you as my Lord and savior. Then I went to my bed and prayed for my mother. The next morning I woke up with Joy undesirable.
I have never been this happy in my whole life.
Then I met my father for the first time he brought me to the US with him. But all was not well. We lived in San Antonino Texas my parent nearly fought every week. They yelling matches would be so bad that sometimes the neighbor would call the police.
I had a hard time adjusting to American culture. Because I didn’t speak a word of English. There were very little Asians living in Texas. I was ridiculed at school the other kids made fun of my food. When I spoke some lines from SpongeBob the teachers got angry and complained to my parents.
After 6 months we left Texas and moved to Grand Rapids Michigan.
It was worse there all the other kids at school didn’t want me to join there sports team so I was paired up with the kids with autism down syndrome. These kids were all very sweet. But I felt reject by my peers so I acted weird in order to become popular. Pretty soon I essentially became the school clown.
The thing got worse with my family when my father's parents came to live with us in America for a few months.
Long Story short my grandparents had fights with my mom.
My grandfather even tried to hit my mother.
I escaped with my mother to her friend's home.
I was forced to abandon my pet turtle with my dad and his parents.
Due to my mother's financial limitation, we often went hungry while we were living in her friend's house.
When we returned my pet turtle was gone replaced with goldfishes.
My father demanded a DNA test on me to prove I was his because I sided with my mom.
It turns out I was indeed his.
Afterward we were kicked out of our apartments because the neighbor couldn’t take the constant shouting either.
When I moved into my new apartment, I made two new friends one’s name was Abby and the other was Xavier.
We were all into Pokémon and video games and we had a lot of fun.
However, there was a bully named Tino that went on the same bus that I did.
One day I was playing a Pokémon game and I said the word sweet kiss which is a Pokémon move. Then Tino heard it and called me a gaywa.
One day Tino followed me off the bus and said he wanted to fight me. Tino said he would go easy on me if I didn’t fight back. So I let him hit me and kick me until I was at the stairs of my apartment. Tino said” If you call me Master I will let you go. So I did and he let me go.
My Father soon mailed a divorce paper to my mother on April fool’s day. It devasted her because she still hadn’t master English and didn’t want to divorce.
My relationship with Abby soon broke down. We had a war and Abby jumped on top of me and she was like right on top of me and she wouldn’t get off I pushed with all my might and was able to barely escape.
I felt violated and one my friends joked I was raped by a girl.
Then in the worst timing possible when I hit puberty. Tino was right I was a gaywa.
All my dreams were shattered before me. All of my life I just wanted to be accepted. I just wanted to be normal. My dream of having a family of making my family proud was all shattered. I had to keep all of this to my self.
In a Chinese family, such a thing would be unthinkable for my family.
As I held on to my dark secrets My mother began hearing voices in her head telling her to die.
The person I loved most was slowly losing her grip on reality.
With my mother’s mental state crumbling.
My father sent her back to China in order to recuperate.
During this time my father was experimenting with different religions in order to become reach.
He took me to the synagogues and gave me a Talmud in order to find the secret of how the jews became rich.
He also took me to a Jehovah’s witness Church to study their knowledge.
Almost six months had passed if my mother didn’t return to the US soon her green card would be revoked and it wouldn’t be possible for her to return.
We didn’t know if she had the mental capacity to come back.
So I made a promise to God if he could bring her back here before her green card was revoked I would believe in him.
My mother successfully arrived back in the US on time. But only a week later due to her deteriorating conditions. We had to send her back.
I forgot about my promise. But something in me changed. I wanted to find a way to end my misery and saved my mother.
After I completed 6 grade my father decided to switch profession from stem cell to genetics and moved to Spokane Washington.
My father officiated the divorce before we moved. My mother couldn’t even defend herself because she was in China. The news hit her hard when my father shipped all her clothing back to her as well as the divorce paper she was abandoned when she needed him the most.
There was no scientific way to completely cure my mother mental illness. So soon became involved in the New age movement which believed that all religions are correct and that humans were cosmic being that could gain healing power like reiki through crystal meditations and orb cards. I particularly followed a teacher named Diana Cooper from Great Britain who have seen angels and dimensional unicorns. I study their light magic in hope of finding a way to heal my mother of her disease. They sold all sorts of stuff in their shops even a gay love potion that could turn other people gay and invisibility spells. The hilarious thing was that they told people to use these things ethically. Yeah like I’m totally going to use a love potion ethically.
Also during this time, I got interested in haunted houses by watching the haunted on Animal planet and was fascinated by these exorcisms.
One of my new Classmates in Spokane Washington Daniel Sloane lived next door to a warlock. The warlock moved away but he left an amulet behind. I asked Daniel Sloane to bring me the amulet.
So he gave it to me and I brought it home.
One day for no reason I had the sudden urge to buy a bible.
I didn’t know why I wanted a bible just that I wanted one.
I read through the whole book of Genesis but I could not understand it.
I also successfully purchased a crystal from brazil and tried to extract spiritual powers from it.
During this time I started coughing up blood
Since I was interested in exorcism haunted houses. I noticed a book in Walmart called Prayers that rout demons by John Eckhardt.
There were bible verses in these books I was hesitant to read these prayers at first. But then I read them. Then I had a dream and in that dream.
I was taken by a school bus into a courtroom. In that Courtroom, I saw God. I didn’t see what he looked like I just knew the person speaking to me was God. He asked me if I feared him. I said yes. Then he showed me a trophy with silver crosses on it. I woke up from the dream but didn’t know what to think of it. All I did was brag to the other kids in school about who showed up in my dreams last night.
Eventually, The new Agers announced on 11/11/2011 something big was going to happen.
But nothing did. I was fed up with the BS From the New Agers and decide to stop following them.
A day later I remember seeing a tv program called the 700 club I didn’t know what it was about but I remember liking it.
So I looked it up on youtube.
The 700 club talked about drug dealers, prostitutes, and bad people who’s lives were changed by accepting Jesus.
I knew I wanted this forgiveness and transformation too.
So I prayed Jesus I’m a sinner I believe that you died on the cross for my sin and that you again on the third day. I accept you as my Lord and savior. Then I went to my bed and prayed for my mother. The next morning I woke up with Joy undesirable.
I have never been this happy in my whole life.