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Post by princess on Aug 12, 2019 3:05:52 GMT
I had a real God encounter. Now I cannot find anyone around me that is like me. Further more... I feel very empty --- like I need something that I don't have yet. I almost feel like if the Lord makes me wait any longer the result will not be good. I am to a point right now where I wish I could just go home. I can't take the separation any longer. Now everyone and everything around me seems fake and I am hurting. I don't understand. The pain for the last 6 years has brought me to a fetal position screaming for mercy and finding none from the church or my enemies. It quite literally feels like being torn in two. I feel lost. I have tried most everything I can think even covering myself with ashes. I am completely broken. I am surrounded by devastation knowing my own sin caused this destruction in my past. I don't understand how the Lord could speak with me 6 years ago and then just abandon me to a bunch of people that done nothing but hurt me. No one... Not one came a long side me to help me. Please someone anyone help me to understand. I just don't know what to do anymore. I really don't think the church loves me anymore. I am so different from all of them. This God encounter has made me separate and different and left me without a home and family and shunned by the church. I just don't understand.
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Post by Larry Marquez on Aug 12, 2019 5:24:12 GMT
A lot of people are sadly baby Christians or aren't really born again. So that means it's hard to find people that relate to how you feel. Just prayer for them to grow in Jesus.
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Post by Matthew on Aug 12, 2019 8:17:52 GMT
I’ll pray for you princess, that God will bring you through exactly what you need. Just know that just because they attend a building and service doesn’t make them the church, much of the true fellowship I’ve had with followers of Jesus has been outside of what most call ‘church’. The true church will love you like Jesus does, just trust in Him and He will pull you through.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18
“God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.” Phil. 4:19
I don’t know who you are and I haven’t been on this forum for a while, but I feel like the Lord brought me here to pray for you. So although it may not feel like it, He’s watching out for you and He cares for you. Don’t despair and trust in His promises, Jesus will prevail!
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Post by waris on Aug 12, 2019 22:41:41 GMT
I had a real God encounter. Now I cannot find anyone around me that is like me. Further more... I feel very empty --- like I need something that I don't have yet. I almost feel like if the Lord makes me wait any longer the result will not be good. I am to a point right now where I wish I could just go home. I can't take the separation any longer. Now everyone and everything around me seems fake and I am hurting. I don't understand. The pain for the last 6 years has brought me to a fetal position screaming for mercy and finding none from the church or my enemies. It quite literally feels like being torn in two. I feel lost. I have tried most everything I can think even covering myself with ashes. I am completely broken. I am surrounded by devastation knowing my own sin caused this destruction in my past. I don't understand how the Lord could speak with me 6 years ago and then just abandon me to a bunch of people that done nothing but hurt me. No one... Not one came a long side me to help me. Please someone anyone help me to understand. I just don't know what to do anymore. I really don't think the church loves me anymore. I am so different from all of them. This God encounter has made me separate and different and left me without a home and family and shunned by the church. I just don't understand. What do you need help understanding specifically? Like what you need to do if you should be doing something? You don’t know what to do in terms of what or which area? I also have been isolated but really learning a lot with God. My family doesn’t like me and recently kicked me out yesterday and won’t give me a reason why. And everybody seems to ignore me when I talk or ask a question. They can’t handle it and so the spiritual warfare I guess makes them want to kill me like a family member said he would yesterday. They yell at me for no reason and won’t let me speak. All they can say is I need meds but they won’t explain why. A lot of liars as well, which is typical when they come against you for no reason. I also saw your other post about the fire, I went through it to and it felt like my whole soul on the inside was on fire it felt tormenting and like other people’s fire baptism could make you think about suicide, but not actually do it of course. Bible says this will happen being persecuted for his sake and righteousness sake. If the world hate you know that it hated Yeshua first. Refinement and trials.
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