Post by demetri on Mar 3, 2017 3:50:33 GMT
Mar 3, 2017 1:34:31 GMT moni said:
God save us from desires of our hearts. Please crucify our flesh we are too weak to fight against it on our own. Only You can keep it dead and us alive in Christ. Our hearts are wicked and desire wicked things, please make the rivers of life flow through it instead of lust and pride please take our hearts by force if necessary, stop our flesh from blinding us. You are Holy I want to die and be with Jesus this flesh is too much and it doesnt want to let go of things i hate it i know i dont deserve to be with Jesus and if i see Him how will i feel i mean how is it even possible to be in His presence i just imagine how horrible it must feel knowing He is Holy and sees thru all of you and how do you even go about this
How is it possible to be clean enough i mean the heart can be evil in THE MOST SNEAKIEST OF WAYS.
Im sorry its so offtopic im going with the flow currently im being broken
I know "what is impossible with man is possible with God" but can i sabotage Gods work? I feel like i will, like i will disappoint and my flesh will get in the way. If im supposed to rest in Him and let Him work then why is it this difficult. Is it all faith? Is my faith making it possible to cleanse me or is it God? Or is faith a gift from God? But its still difficult! I walk around daily thinking everything is ok busy with work, thinking talking to Jesus in my head while on my way to work is enough wondering why im not feeling His presence till i come to Him and realize ive been in the world blinded by my flesh and feel like a dirt. Not getting anywhere not even knowing what im supposed to do for Him. I cant believe how content i was. He is Holy!
You're not alone moni. I relate to your whole post. Thanks for posting what was on your heart